Reality Sucks....

Yesterday I went to the hospital to do my blood tests for my next session of Chemo.  All went well at the hospital and I was out of there in fairly short order.  The deal is that the tests would be evaluated prior to my session and if my counts were off they would reach out to me.  That is the protocol that we live with.  The balance of my day was spent hoping that the phone does not ring as a call is usually bad news.  Since I have had the calls before I was very aware of this circumstance happening.

Well I made it through to a little after 3 pm with the thought that my Tuesday session would happen.  However, I did receive the call and in fact my WBC count was even lower than the previous week.  When pressed for an answer about what I could do to boost my WBC count the nurse told me to wash my hands more frequently.  Disappointed .... well I guess.  Not only was I disappointed with the news I was a little disappointed with the comment from the nurse. 

So I have accepted that I will try again next Monday with an early morning blood test and then I get to meet Dr Jonker at 11:00 am and Dr Auer at 1:00 pm.  I had asked for the appointment with Dr Auer as she is my Oncologist of record and I had felt it was time for an update.  My CT Scan is on Friday and there should be some results from that test by Monday.   The appointment with Dr Jonker is a routine scheduled appointment but I hope to get some answers from either or both of the Drs on Monday.

Delays like this give the “bad guys” opportunity to move at will as my line of defense is cut off.  In addition, it is hard to maintain a regular life when these significant appointments for Chemo are shifted.  I had already moved a bunch of appointments around to accommodate the last delay and now I must do the same thing for next week.

But I guess that is my reality right now.  My treatment is the priority and the balance of my life revolves around this reality.  However, at the risk of repeating myself, right now reality sucks.

Hoping you are well and happy and that I will be able to report better news in the upcoming week.  Thank you to those of you who have taken the time to drop me notes about these updates.  Your input helps me greatly.  Be well ......